Alright. Here is a life time lesson of an update. Date 17/09/2020; after all the stressful emotions with no help that I got from my thesis supervisor, it was my bachelor thesis defence date. 12 hard topics to study for defence question about university lecture questions. FINAL DAY!!. Previous night, I wasn't even able to revise everything with a solid attention. The reason was that I was just tired of all the stress of unknowns and all this Corona problems during the year 2020. The date of thesis defence was in September. Previous year I had my internship in Turkey and I was promised a place to work in Canada. A new branch of the company to provide products to American countries. I have learnt that due to unsuccessful business, company decided to close the branch in Canada. I had made all my plans according to that. Right after my last semester finished in Politechnika Warsawska, I have learnt this bad news. I was devastated with this new information that it changed the plans about the course of my future. I decided to go to an event in Warsaw which was for foreigners but many Polish people join to this events as well. I remember I had to wait at the bar to get a drink and saw this pretty girl who was waiting for a drink to order by the bar as well. I was like what the heck. Let's talk. I started a more friendly talk since I was in a bad shape and didn't really feel like hitting on the girl. As much as we talked, I have learnt that she is married and I already made my mind not to hit on her. So the conversation was more to know more about each other. We were talking what we do in Warsaw generally. I talked about my thesis topic which was person tracking on videos. She said she was a programmer too and her husband was at this event as well and she told me that her husband was looking for Python developers for his startup company. All this lead me to talk with the husband and husband took my email right the next day I had this bad news. Next day this guy sent me an email with a task to finish as a prerequisation for job interview. I wasn't believing myself at coding because I was a self taught Python programmer and I was very out of practice since my university is a challenging and very time taking one. I tried to solve the algorithm that he asked for and the main problem of the task was solved. I didn't believe in myself and also prioritized my tasks and didn't even send the code I wrote. Because I said I need to graduate first. I need to write a whole new article about my thesis so I will skip the struggles I had for my thesis for now. So I missed that chance by my selection of other path. As far as I know, I at least could have tried to send my code and see their reaction. The problem is that I didn't know anyone to see myself if I am any good and by default I thought of myself as 'NOT GOOD ENOUGH'. Or in other words, not perfect. Time passed till September till the date of my thesis defence. I wanted to say in Poland because I was in a relationship with this wonderful girl. I must say hard to find a girl like that. In a modern world of selfish individuals to save their asses without trying to understand others, This girl always supported me even through the days which you will be reading in a minute.
About my thesis supervisor though, I am a person to make my judgements about people with my gut feelings and most of the time I am correct with my decisions about people. I have always thought about my supervisor that he is a sneaky person that I couldn't predict what he could do. On the day of my thesis defence, I have finished and passed all the examination and did my presentation about my thesis topic. At the end of this 'online thesis defence examination' the chairman of the council who was my teacher at university told me that 'you are officially graduated and an engineer'. I will always remember this moment through my life. It was a moment of truth that I sacrified and worked hard for. Even better that, after a few hours my thesis supervisor contacted me that he was working on a project and he kind of meant that he was offering me a job. Next day for paperwork, I had to visit my supervisor and he finally explained about the job and it was a position that I really wanted. 4 days after my thesis defence I had to leave the dormitory which I was living. I didn't have a place and I started this inverview process for the job my thesis supervisor offered. I asked my friend for a place to stay for a week. I thought the whole process would end fast. And to be honest, I didn't have enough money to rent a place and keep it for a few months. At the same time, I applied for university dormitories to stay at least for a few months when I get the job. My plan was to save some money for the rent and deposit money to rent a room in Warsaw. I explained that I was NOT a student anymore on dormitory application website. My application was accepted but I wasn't given a room since they had to place the students firstly. In my mind, yeah sure maybe I can arrange to move in to dormitory which certain information that I got the job.
Days passed, interview process took more than I expected. I believe I crashed at the interview and I am certain about it. On 11/10/2020 I was told that I got the job and on 15/10/2020 I was invited to talk about the contract. I still was staying at my friends and no words from dormitory. I accepted the offer and on Thursday I visited the 3 offices to find someone who could help me about the dormitories afterwards. The plan was to start working on 19/10/2020 which was Monday. Previous Friday I went to the dormitory office to camp there till I get a room in dormitories. I was confident that I will get a room because my application was accepted. After waiting all the hours, 1 hour before dormitory administration closes, I finally pushed through and got a room in dormitory and just ran to dormitory to make my check in and get the keys. Dormitory told me that they don't give rooms to non student people. I went back to central dormitory office and they said in that case they cannot give me a room. All plans crashed once again. On monday I was supposed to start working and I had only weekend to figure out something with limited money that I had.
I was always a person to hesitate to ask people for favors, I didn't want to stay at my friends place since it already had been a month and I asked for week only. Finally I got out from my friends place and found a weekly rental place. I am perfectionist so I didn't want to rent a place since I am certain about the work. PS. They gave me a trial month so that's way I didn't want to make a contract of a year for a rental room. Finally with my girlfriend we found a weekly rental place on a new website that I wasn't able to really trust. On Sunday I stayed at my girlfriend and all my stuff was at a different friends place. I wore my clothes for Monday and went to my girlfriend's place. I messed up my shirt and my girl decided to wash. She was just trying to help but there wasn't enough time to dry my shirt. I asked for a shirt from her and I wore that shirt on my FIRST EVER working day. I wasn't able to sleep for last 2 days.
First day at work, I loved the co-workers, but suddenly there was an issue about legality of my contract since I was a foreigner and Poland sucks at foreigner policy. Half way through my first ever working day, my boss told me that they cannot made the contract legally so he offered me that the easiest way for me to go to Turkey and get visa with documents which they could give me. I said it is fine. I hadn't seen my family more then a year. But as I said, I didn't trust my skills and I had negative gut feelings about this guy who was my thesis supervisor as well. I researched all the possibilities and found a few different ways and decided it was the best to listen what my company told me and step back for a second.
This is the day that after all the homeless state, being broke, hustling sooo hard to land a IT job which proper knowledge and experience that I made my mind. I will take my plane ticket to Turkey in all this COVID-19 shit and trust in that guy that he will provide me with documents. I hustled so hard that I didn't know that I was capable of doing things. I didn't break down. But I started to believe in making steps backwards when it is essential. I will take a step backwards and let the situation handle itself at least for once.
I just hope that things will go in a good way but I learnt in hard way that not everything can be solved by hustling. Sometimes you need to step down to see how things will go. And I really do believe that I did everything that in my power or even out of my power.
